More treadmill today. Including TWO bursts at slightly accelerated speed this time. On the downside though, my iPod battery ran out half way through: very very bad, amazing how much more difficult I find it to run in silence.

Am feeling quite proud now though, this running is starting to feel a bit more like a pattern of behavior, a bit less like an extraordinary intervention into the rest of my life. And it doesn't seem quite so ludicrous to contemplate dropping the words 'I run' into a casual conversation (even though the first attempt at this - to one of my oldest girlfriends - was greeted with astonished amusement). Also, is it possible that there might have been a slight change in my physical state, even over such a short period? it does seem as if I'm slightly less out of breath than when I started out, and maybe as if there may be some discernible muscle matter in my calves after all. Perhaps this could spread: I remember my doctor at a physical check-up a few years ago exclaiming in some alarm "oh, you don't seem to have any abs". Or maybe the change is just the power of dreams: could I be hallucinating under the pressure?